Desire sometimes causes accidents, and it sure did yesterday when I was craving my usual pumpkin spiced latte at Starbucks. I decided to bike down Prospect St. in Cambridge, a street that is always torn apart and being worked on continuously. In an attempt to save my life, I made my way over to the sidewalk but mid-way realized cops were everywhere and didn't want to 'break the law' so I tried to go back in the street. BAD MOVE! I found my tire going sideways somewhere between the curb and the road and my body fell right over. I used my yoga throughout the whole ordeal. Noticing my tendency to tell the stranger who offered help that, "no I'm fine, as I held back tears and excruciating pain in my leg.) Then I actually got on my bike and tried to power through telling myself I'll be fine if I just make it to starbucks going really slow. Not so! Just like holding a yoga pose can become torture if you are not ready to take it or go to the next level, you rest in child's pose. So, I told myself to get off the bike and walk the bike which was a much gentler option (the child's pose option). I could hardly walk was the problem! It has been challenging for an active person like myself to have this injury, not be able to walk anywhere, do yoga or teach! It is challenging to know that I can't bend my left leg at all or else I get pain. I am taking care of myself in the best way I know how. Instead of worrying about not practicing my yoga, I took joy in doing a 20 minute yoga class on back and neck poses. Just as satisfying as a vigorous practice because guess what? It's what my body needs. This injury has taught me that simply doing what you "can" and honoring those painful spots and not pushing is the most intelligent way you can work with yourself.
Sorry, I wasn't able to teach at Shanti today. I will be back tomorrow and on but not DOING any poses, merely teaching from a seated position (and that too, will be perfect practice!).
Peace,
Natalie
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